So it has been a whopping four months since I have posted. These four months have been some of the hardest I’ve been put through, both mentally and physically with school and motherhood amid everything else. But I am on the other side of it now, and I’m looking forward to an awesome 2017.
So I have decided in 2017, that I will focus on me.
Yep, I have a child but I’m gonna focus on myself.
Of course Karter comes first, but the end of 2016 was so hard, I need to put myself first too in order to be the mom he deserves.
I’m sure people can agree with me, that being a parent is so fucking hard. Yea I had to swear, that’s how serious I am.
Some of the moments are so euphoric, and I don’t think another moment could make me happier, but then something else happens and so on. I am afraid I won’t remember them and I need to photograph them, but I really need to put my phone down and live in the moment instead of trying to photograph it.
Being a mom was definitely my destiny, however I’m still human and need to work on myself.
I get so wrapped up in my anxieties, I need to find a way to cope and live.
I have decided to set goals for myself that are different than my typical goals.
Here are a few…
- Love myself for who I am
- start meditating (I did it a few times, and LOVED it)
- be comfortable with my body again
- start knitting (I’m 25, going on 70)
- create more memories with Karter that aren’t all photographed
- make time for myself despite the challenges of life
This isn’t necessarily a Karter post or a parenting post, but it is a post to tell parents to take time for themselves.
This semester I had a placement where my preceptor told me how important it is to make time for yourself because the burnout is real. Her method is simple, after a hard day when “her well is dry” as she put it, she goes to Tim Horton’s orders a donut and a coffee and goes walking along the beach. It centers her.
Burnout is real, take care of yourself people.
Another way, I like to relax. Cuddling.